Ranting Froggy Panties

Ok, so I have decided to participate in NaPoBloMo!! I know it is a funny name, but the point is to get into the habit of posting and of finding new and original content to write about that people WANT to read. I don't know how good I'll be at it, but I am going to give it a try. Thinking about writing a post every single day is kind of overwhelming, but I'm hoping it will make me a better writer if I do this. So, watch out in May, because that is when I will start this daily posting journey. They have a topic, but of course you don't have to follow it. Their topic is ,"Sweet". I'm going to see what I can do with that, but no promises!! If anyone is actually reading this little ole'blog o' mine, I would LOVE some feedback and suggestions. Those always help!! Well, just wanted to let ya'll know what was coming in May!! Exciting business I tell ya, exciiiiiting!! LOL! Pretty pathetic aren't I!! Take care until I return to write again!! (How dramatic was that?)  :)

This has not been the best weekend to say the least. First and foremost, my heart has been aching since I got the news yesterday that a good friend of mine, Lori's (aka Lor-lor) husband passed away very unexpectedly yesterday. I have been able to think of little else, because Lor-Lor is my age and now she is a widow. It doesn't make any sense. He was fine and then he was gone. I mean, he'd been sick, but had been getting better. It just makes me so incredibly sad for her and her children. How do you keep breathing? How do you keep going? I just don't know what I would do if I lost CH. It would be devastating. Last night I was up almost all night just watching CH while he slept and thanked God for him. I just wanted to write a short entry and let Lor-Lor know that my thoughts and prayers are with her and her entire family as they go through this extremely difficult time. Tell the ones you love I love you. Don't put it off because you may not get another chance. 

What it is with college students and balconies? Something about this combination does not ever go well. It's like you put them in an apartment with a balcony and then all of a sudden it is ok to scream and yell and get totally wasted at one o'clock in the morning, while peeing off of said balcony onto unsuspecting neighbors below. Let me tell you, that is what I want. To be awakened out of a dead sleep only to open my door and to look up and across the parking lot only to see some college kid's teeny weeny!! Not only that, these idiots the began throwing beer bottles into the parking lot and hitting cars. Why do they have to be so senseless in their behavior? Do they actually think that people will tolerate this type of crap? Well, I certainly won't and didn't. I, being the good citizen that I am (lol), put a call into our men in blue to come and protect me from the weeny swinging, bottle throwing, foul mouthed children that were interrupting my beauty sleep, not that said sleep helps with beauty at all, but hey, it's the thought that counts right? Anyhow, I just wanted to say how frustrating it is to wake up in the middle of the night to this kind of crap. So, now have a great Tuesday and I'm going to try and find some fun stuff for this boring blog of mine!! 

I do not get it. What is it that everytime I turn on the news another MOTHER has killed her child. HER CHILD!! I absolutely cannot wrap my brain around WHY!! To be able to crawl around in these women's brains. Oh, just to even have a reason, because I do not see what could drive a mother to take her child's life. Now, my mother has said to me many a time, "I brought you into this world and I can take you right out of it." Usually after one of my ill timed stunts or comments, but these days that old saying has a whole new meaning!! I look at the pictures of these beautiful, innocent children that had their whole lives ahead of them and then I look at the mothers accused of their brutal, heinous deaths and I just can't process it. To look at the pictures and see their eyes, it is as if their soul is absent. Their eyes are empty and cold, regardless of what words are coming out of their mouths. I would give my own life for one more fucking moment with my child who I have been searching for for almost three years. I would absolutely do anything and everything within my power to make sure that my daughter was happy, healthy, and thriving. What gives ANYONE the right to take the life of a child?? What in God's name could a CHILD do to incur the wrath of these women? I guess none of us will ever be able to make sense of this. My thoughts and prayers are certainly with these childrens' families and friends that have lost one of the most precious and wonderful gifts that can be given.....a child's life. 

First of all, I'm not even sure I spelled the damn word right, but I AM having a major case of de ja vu!! I got an email from one of the places that I interviewed for a job and guess what?? I didn't get it. WOW!! What a surprise. I swear, when I go on an interview, I must have,"Don't hire me.", stamped across my forhead in bright neon lights only the person interviewing me can see! In the email, she says," Thank you for taking the time to visit with us. Unfortunately, we have hired someone for the position that you applied for." And let me guess, it wasn't me? Man, what do I have to do to get a damn job?? I beginning to understand why people go insane and do crazy things after losing a job. I was NOT made to stay at home alone. That does not work for me. When I'm home alone it gives me time to think and that can be a VERY dangerous thing for me. Many times CJ will come home and find me curled in a ball under my covers moaning. He'll say," What the hell are you doing?", and I'll answer,"I've been thinking again......." Then he'll say," Oh god, not again!! Enough with the thinking!!" Need I say more? Like I said, thinking is BAAAAD!!!

Like the title of this post stated, my life is so NOT interesting. I love to read other people's blogs and it seems like so many people have such interesting, funny lives. Then I look at my own life and it's pathetic. Nothing ever happens to me. Not that I want anything to happen, happen, but you know what I mean. I don't have funny conversations with anyone, except maybe myself and my dog, but who would want to hear about those?? The most exciting thing I do all day is get out of bed. WOO HOO!! Seriously! Having no job has made me very un-fun. Then I proceed to get on the computer and entertain myself with stories from EVERYONE ELSE's life. Makes me sad! I used to be fun. At least I think I used to be fun. I always had the ability to make my friends laugh. Where did that part of me go? I suppose I lost it when I lost my job in January. Wouldn't surprise me. Since then, there hasn't been a whole lot of humor in my life.