Friday, May 8, 2009


I really was planning on posting every day this month, but I had to get a loan on my computer and now I am without it and am very lonely. Man, it is amazing how dependent we get on these things. I have been having internet withdrawal symptoms such as insomnia, intense cravings to read blogs of any sort, finger cramps (from not working them out by typing), my butt doesn't have that constant tingly feeling in it like when I have sat in front of the computer all day, and my eyes don't burn as much. Oh how I miss the tingly butt and the burning eyeballs!! Somebody help me!! Anyhow, I found a way to at least keep the withdrawals to a minimum, the apartment complex computers!! Not always reliable, but that's ok. At least I can get a quick fix when I'm starting to climb the walls. Anyhow, I know with ya'lls support I can make it through this very difficult time in my computer addiction. Take care and I'll post again soon!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Where has this year gone?? It feels like just yesterday we were ringing in the New Year. Man, it seems like the older you get, that faster time goes by. I don't want my time to go this fast. I mean, there are some days that I want to go fast, like PMS days or days when things aren't going my way, but other than that, can we slow things down just a little? Kind of like the Toys R Us song," I don't wanna grow up, I'm a really big kid, la da da di da la da la da la da la!"  So anyway, you know I said I was going to try to do the post every single day this month thing. I'm still going to do this, I only have to find fun stuff to write about. I suppose the point of this is to improve on my writing. Let's just hope it works, otherwise, I'm gonna be in serious trouble!! Thank you to those of you that have read my blog. I certainly appreciate it! Hey, a gal's gotta start somewhere, right? Guess I'll be seein' ya'll tomorrow!! Or sooner if the mood strikes me!!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Coming In May!!

Ok, so I have decided to participate in NaPoBloMo!! I know it is a funny name, but the point is to get into the habit of posting and of finding new and original content to write about that people WANT to read. I don't know how good I'll be at it, but I am going to give it a try. Thinking about writing a post every single day is kind of overwhelming, but I'm hoping it will make me a better writer if I do this. So, watch out in May, because that is when I will start this daily posting journey. They have a topic, but of course you don't have to follow it. Their topic is ,"Sweet". I'm going to see what I can do with that, but no promises!! If anyone is actually reading this little ole'blog o' mine, I would LOVE some feedback and suggestions. Those always help!! Well, just wanted to let ya'll know what was coming in May!! Exciting business I tell ya, exciiiiiting!! LOL! Pretty pathetic aren't I!! Take care until I return to write again!! (How dramatic was that?)  :)

Monday, April 27, 2009

For Lor Lor

This has not been the best weekend to say the least. First and foremost, my heart has been aching since I got the news yesterday that a good friend of mine, Lori's (aka Lor-lor) husband passed away very unexpectedly yesterday. I have been able to think of little else, because Lor-Lor is my age and now she is a widow. It doesn't make any sense. He was fine and then he was gone. I mean, he'd been sick, but had been getting better. It just makes me so incredibly sad for her and her children. How do you keep breathing? How do you keep going? I just don't know what I would do if I lost CH. It would be devastating. Last night I was up almost all night just watching CH while he slept and thanked God for him. I just wanted to write a short entry and let Lor-Lor know that my thoughts and prayers are with her and her entire family as they go through this extremely difficult time. Tell the ones you love I love you. Don't put it off because you may not get another chance. 

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

What it is with college students and balconies? Something about this combination does not ever go well. It's like you put them in an apartment with a balcony and then all of a sudden it is ok to scream and yell and get totally wasted at one o'clock in the morning, while peeing off of said balcony onto unsuspecting neighbors below. Let me tell you, that is what I want. To be awakened out of a dead sleep only to open my door and to look up and across the parking lot only to see some college kid's teeny weeny!! Not only that, these idiots the began throwing beer bottles into the parking lot and hitting cars. Why do they have to be so senseless in their behavior? Do they actually think that people will tolerate this type of crap? Well, I certainly won't and didn't. I, being the good citizen that I am (lol), put a call into our men in blue to come and protect me from the weeny swinging, bottle throwing, foul mouthed children that were interrupting my beauty sleep, not that said sleep helps with beauty at all, but hey, it's the thought that counts right? Anyhow, I just wanted to say how frustrating it is to wake up in the middle of the night to this kind of crap. So, now have a great Tuesday and I'm going to try and find some fun stuff for this boring blog of mine!! 

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I do not get it. What is it that everytime I turn on the news another MOTHER has killed her child. HER CHILD!! I absolutely cannot wrap my brain around WHY!! To be able to crawl around in these women's brains. Oh, just to even have a reason, because I do not see what could drive a mother to take her child's life. Now, my mother has said to me many a time, "I brought you into this world and I can take you right out of it." Usually after one of my ill timed stunts or comments, but these days that old saying has a whole new meaning!! I look at the pictures of these beautiful, innocent children that had their whole lives ahead of them and then I look at the mothers accused of their brutal, heinous deaths and I just can't process it. To look at the pictures and see their eyes, it is as if their soul is absent. Their eyes are empty and cold, regardless of what words are coming out of their mouths. I would give my own life for one more fucking moment with my child who I have been searching for for almost three years. I would absolutely do anything and everything within my power to make sure that my daughter was happy, healthy, and thriving. What gives ANYONE the right to take the life of a child?? What in God's name could a CHILD do to incur the wrath of these women? I guess none of us will ever be able to make sense of this. My thoughts and prayers are certainly with these childrens' families and friends that have lost one of the most precious and wonderful gifts that can be given.....a child's life. 

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

De Ja Vu?

First of all, I'm not even sure I spelled the damn word right, but I AM having a major case of de ja vu!! I got an email from one of the places that I interviewed for a job and guess what?? I didn't get it. WOW!! What a surprise. I swear, when I go on an interview, I must have,"Don't hire me.", stamped across my forhead in bright neon lights only the person interviewing me can see! In the email, she says," Thank you for taking the time to visit with us. Unfortunately, we have hired someone for the position that you applied for." And let me guess, it wasn't me? Man, what do I have to do to get a damn job?? I beginning to understand why people go insane and do crazy things after losing a job. I was NOT made to stay at home alone. That does not work for me. When I'm home alone it gives me time to think and that can be a VERY dangerous thing for me. Many times CJ will come home and find me curled in a ball under my covers moaning. He'll say," What the hell are you doing?", and I'll answer,"I've been thinking again......." Then he'll say," Oh god, not again!! Enough with the thinking!!" Need I say more? Like I said, thinking is BAAAAD!!!

Another thing that really gets me about being at home alone so much is lack of human interaction and when that happens, I start conversing with the dog, the t.v., my stuffed teddy bear, anything. Including myself. Yes, I talk to myself. They say that's ok as long as you don't answer yourself.  Well, if I don't answer me, then who will? And what will happen if I answer myself? I haven't suddenly exploded or anything. Who knows. I swear there are times when I am just gabbing away at the poor dog and he looks at me with this expression that says," Puh-leeez, puh-leez, just stop talking. Go talk to the bear. I really don't care. I just want to sleep. GO AWAY!!" I mean, if he could talk, I think that is probably what he would say. Of course, if I were a dog and had some crazy human lady yapping at me, I would say the same thing!!  I just thank God that he can't talk, because some of the secrets he knows, MAN!! Yeah right, like I have any really juicy secrets. HAHA!! If I had juicy secrets, that would mean that I had a life, and if I had a life I wouldn't be talking to the damn dog!! And around and around we go!! 

Well, thank you once again for subjecting yourself to my boring life. Maybe one of these days I'll actually have something of significance to report!! Won't that be fun? But I wouldn't hold my breath on that one. So, take care and have a wonderfully exciting, fun-filled day!!